我总在回望来路时，感念一场命运的馈赠——遇见我的恩师盧軍宏台长，是他，将我从沉沉阴霾里拽出，予我新生，予我光明。
幼时的我，亲缘薄如蝉翼。父母的关系横亘着无法弥合的裂痕，母亲强势的性子，像一道密不透风的墙，将父亲隔绝在我的成长之外。我依着母亲长大，她经商多年，处世精明，把功利与计较揉进了日常。我在这样的环境里耳濡目染，心性日渐晦暗，看世间的目光，也蒙上了一层灰尘。
长大后，我在不知不觉中复刻了母亲的处世模式，将控制、猜疑与执念带入自己的工作与感情之中。人与事在这样的状态里逐渐失衡，前行之路也屡屡受阻。尤其是在那段亲密关系中，我深陷执著与纠缠，把自己和对方都刺得遍体鳞伤，甚至抑郁到一度生起了轻生的念头。
庆幸恰在这样的低谷中，因缘成熟，我得以接触佛法，遇到XLFM，遇到师父。从此开始学佛念经，化解冤结，消业还债，让我从纠缠与痛苦中逐渐抽身，重新找回生命的方向。
犹记初学佛时，恍如蓦然回首，惊觉自己满身棱角、偏执狭隘，活成了自己最不喜欢的模样。那时的我，将这一切归咎于母亲，觉得她的“言传身教”犹如一把利器，悄然刻入我的性情之中，使我在浑然不觉里，被负面的情绪与认知层层包裹。我抱怨过，甚至瞋恨。
随着学佛的深入，才逐渐明白：受外境影响，并非单一因缘，而是自身根基、业力牵引与冤结纠缠所致。我通过念经化解与母亲之间的冤结，同时学习《白话佛法》，知因懂果，提高境界，学会忍辱、放下，使这段关系不再频繁针锋相对。
感恩遇见XLFM，遇到恩师，让我的人生轨迹，终于，终于，指向了光的方向。
师父于我，早已超越了师长的身份，是我精神上的父亲。在我被负能量裹挟、内心暗无天日的岁月里，是他将暖阳注入我的胸膛，一点点驱散经年的寒凉。他以佛法为灯，教我心怀宽容，守持善良，教我跳出狭隘的执念，看见世界的温良与坦荡。我的世界，也在不知不觉中云开雾散。
这场转变，是从内而外的觉醒。心态的调整、认知的重塑，让我逐渐挣脱了原生的枷锁，活成了一个身心清朗、正向温暖的人。
在那次前程受阻，面临重大抉择时，母亲更在意的，只是我在亲友眼中“身处何位”，是否还能成为她炫耀的谈资；而是师父，教会我如何运用“三大法宝”消业还债、改变命运，并在无形中一次次给予我加持；更难得的是，我幸得机会师父为我看图腾，指明了前进的方向。
当我身份出现变故、临期无解之时，母亲冷眼旁观，满心等着我低头求助，好以此为筹码，将我绑进她规划好的人生轨道，活成她期待的模样。可我见过真正的光，便再也不愿退回黑暗。那套算计偏执充满负能量的生活模式，不会再有第二次。我要走的路，是心怀善念、向阳而生的佛光大道。我唯有依止佛法，坚持念经修心，消业还债，诚心祈求菩萨与师父慈悲加持。果然，当因缘在无声中转动，相关政策忽然出现了调整，条件恰好与我相应，我得以顺利快速取得身份。回首此事，唯有感恩佛法不可思议，感恩菩萨与师父慈悲护佑。
我时常会想，若未曾得遇恩师，未曾学习佛法，未曾明理知善，我与母亲的冤结，或许早已纠缠成一部晦涩压抑的电影，在猜忌、算计与执念里，耗尽彼此的光阴，困在不见天日的过往里。
而正因学佛修心，我一方面念经化解冤结，同时通过学习师父的《白话佛法》等开示，心态也渐渐发生了转变。面对对方的背刺，乃至无理的指责与扣帽子，我已不再急于辩解，也不再与之争执，心中虽仍有波澜，却已然能冷静对待，不吵、不恨、不惊、不惧，反而生出一丝悲悯。欣然发现，当我冷下来、静下来，对方也不会长久继续，本可能爆发的雷霆，悄然间就恢复到浪静风平。“五大法宝”的妙用可见一斑！
感恩遇到XLFM，命运有了转折，心灵回归正道，人生有了归处。感恩恩师，如父如灯，以佛法润心，以正念引路，赐我破暗而行的勇气，予我佛光普照的光明。
往后岁月，我必循着这束光，精进学佛修心，自度度人，不负佛恩，不负师恩，不负此生新生。
“劝恶从善，不辜负菩萨的一片苦心；修心向善，不辜负人生的一生苦行；度众行善，不辜负慧命一世改命运。”[摘自：慈悲喜舍抒情怀，普度众生在马来 ——2016年12月25日马来西亚吉隆坡盧軍宏台长开示摘要（下）]
分享如有不如理不如法之处，请菩萨和师父慈悲原谅，我自己的业障自己背。
感恩南无释迦牟尼佛，感恩观世音菩萨，感恩诸佛菩萨龙天护法，感恩师父！
A Teacher’s Grace, a Father’s Heart: Guiding Me Toward the Light
Whenever I look back on the path I have travelled, I am filled with gratitude for a singular gift of fate—meeting my Master, Master Jun Hong Lu. It was he who pulled me from the heavy shadows of my life, granting me a new beginning and a future filled with light.
In my youth, my family ties felt paper-thin. A deep, unbridgeable rift lay between my parents. My mother’s forceful personality was like an impenetrable wall, effectively shutting my father out of my life as I grew up. Raised by her alone, I was shaped by her sharp, business-minded pragmatism. She viewed the world through a lens of utility and constant calculation; living in that environment, my own mindset became “dark.” I began to view the world through a veil of defilement.
As I entered adulthood, I unknowingly replicated my mother’s ways—bringing that same need for control, suspicion, and obsession into my work and my relationships. My life fell out of balance, and my path was constantly blocked by my own doing. This was most painful in my personal life, where I became trapped in a cycle of toxic attachment. I wounded myself and those I loved so deeply that I spiralled into depression, eventually reaching a point where I lost the will to live.
It was at this absolute low point—when the conditions of my life were finally ripe for change—that I found the Buddha-dharma, Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and Master Lu. I began my practice, reciting sutras to resolve karmic conflicts, eliminate my karmic obstacles, and clear my karmic debts. Slowly, I began to pull myself out of the pain and rediscover a sense of direction.
I remember the early days of my practice; it felt like a sudden, jarring awakening. I looked back and was horrified to see how sharp-edged and narrow-minded I had become—I had turned into the very person I disliked most. At the time, I blamed my mother for everything. I felt her “example” had been a blade that carved itself into my character, wrapping me in layers of negativity without me even realising it. I was full of resentment and anger.
Only as I delved deeper into my Buddhist practice did I realise that I was affected by many external factors; my struggles could not be attributed to a single cause. They were the result of my own foundation for awakening, my own karma, and my own unresolved karmic conflicts. By reciting sutras, I began to resolve the friction between my mother and me. Through studying Buddhism in Plain Terms, I came to understand the law of cause and effect. I learned how to practise forbearance, how to let go, and how to elevate my state of mind. Gradually, our relationship stopped being a constant battlefield.
I am profoundly grateful for Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door and for Master Lu. Finally, the trajectory of my life has begun moving toward the light.
To me, Master Lu long ago transcended the role of a teacher; he is like a spiritual father to me. During those years when I was consumed by negative energy and my heart felt like a sunless, dark room, he poured warmth into my soul, thawing the chill that had accumulated over the years. Master Lu’s Buddhist teachings guide me like a light. He taught me tolerance and kindness; he showed me how to step outside my narrow-mindedness and stubbornness to see the positive side and the vastness of the world. Without me even noticing, the mists over my life began to clear.
This transformation was an internal awakening. By reshaping my perspective, I broke free from the shackles of my upbringing. I finally became a person who is clear-headed, positive, and warm.
I remember a time when my career was at a crossroads and I faced a major life choice. My mother’s only concern was my “status” in the eyes of our relatives—whether I could still be someone she could boast about. But it was Master Lu who taught me how to use the “Three Golden Buddhist Practices” to repay my karmic debt and change my own destiny. He gave me blessings on several occasions, and I was also fortunate to have Master Lu perform a totem reading for me, pointing out the direction forward.
Later, when I faced a crisis with a crucial application that seemed to have no solution, my mother stood by coldly. She was waiting for me to beg for her help so she could use it as leverage to trap me back into the life she had planned for me. But once you have seen the true light, you can never go back to the darkness. I refused to return to that life of calculation and negativity. I chose the path of the Buddha—a path of kindness and light. I placed my faith in the Buddha-dharma, persisted in my spiritual practice, recited sutras, and prayed for the mercy and blessing of the Bodhisattvas and Master Lu. Then, the “unthinkable” happened: there was a change in relevant policies, the requirements aligned perfectly with my situation, and my application was approved swiftly. Looking back, I am awed by the inconceivable power of the Buddha-dharma and the protection and blessing of the Bodhisattvas and Master Lu.
I often think: if I hadn’t met Master Lu, if I hadn’t learned Buddhism, where would I be? Due to the karmic conflict with my mother, we would likely be trapped in a dark, oppressive movie of our own making—wasting our lives in a cycle of suspicion and spite, stuck in a past that offered no hope.
As I recite sutras to resolve karmic conflicts and study Master Lu’s Buddhism in Plain Terms, my mindset has changed. Even when faced with betrayal or groundless accusations, I no longer feel the urge to argue. There may be a ripple of emotion, but I can meet it with a calm heart—without anger, without fear, and even with a sense of compassion. I’ve found that when I remain still and calm, the other person’s anger eventually goes out on its own. A storm that could have destroyed everything simply fades into a quiet sea. Such is the miraculous power of the “Five Golden Buddhist Practices.”
I am grateful to have encountered Guan Yin Citta Dharma Door. My life has finally found its home. I am grateful to Master Lu; he is like a father and a lamp, nourishing my heart with Buddha-dharma and guiding me with right intention. He gave me the courage to break through the darkness and shone the ever-present Buddha’s light upon me. In the years to come, I will follow this light, diligently practising Buddhism and awakening myself and others, so that I may be worthy of the Buddha’s grace, Master Lu’s grace, and this new life I have been given.
“Encourage others to turn from evil towards goodness, and do not let the Bodhisattva’s tireless efforts go to waste. Cultivate the mind towards goodness, so as not to squander a lifetime of arduous cultivation. Guide and awaken sentient beings through virtuous deeds, and do not waste this lifetime’s wisdom-life and the opportunity to transform your destiny.” — Excerpt from Master Jun Hong Lu’s Dharma Talk, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia, 25 December 2016
If there is anything improper in this sharing, I ask the Bodhisattvas and Master for compassionate forgiveness. I bear my own karmic obstacles.
Deepest gratitude to Namo Shakyamuni Buddha.
Deepest gratitude to Guan Yin Bodhisattva.
Deepest gratitude to all Buddhas, Bodhisattvas, and Dharma Protectors.
Deepest gratitude to Master Lu.
Shinsha
Shinsha：2026-02-09 20:17
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